School or Moving

 I'm torn between school and moving. School or moving. Moving or school. 


At this point I'm registered and have my schedule and financial aid for tution and just barely applied for housing which took pretty much what I had saved for my total housing costs just for the application fee and deposit. It feels ridiculous to pay a deposit for something I'm not living in yet. So back to square one of $0. Basically I have 3 months to save a few thousand dollars. On top of paying for bills. I work 2 low paying jobs that provide 2 small paychecks. I shouldn't complain. 3 months ago I didn't have a job. I didn't know what to do. I had gone to multiple interviews and gotten no response. I had thought I might go live in my car. I still think this. 

Say I can do it, and earn the money for school I need. I move up there and go to school. Except now once again I have no job and still have bills. 

I'm going to try to be smart. And pay a large sum for bills that way when I'm at school it's less I'm worrying about. But even that costs a lot of money. Not including food, that's another couple thousand. 

A lot of people ask how I'm paying for school. It must be with loans. No. I learned from a young age while some loans are good, school loans aren't. Why would I choose to be in debt for school that will last til I'm 40? My mother was still paying off student loans years and years after school. And she only got an associate's. So wouldn't it make sense to go to school when you can afford it? Obviously I know a lot of people get student loans and pay them off and everything's great. It's mostly a me thing. 


The other side of the coin. Moving. Do I decide to not go to school and just move down south? If I move, I will definitely be living in my car for a bit. I'll have no job, no money coming in for a bit. I'll have no friends. (That's not really a shocker/huge issue as I have no friends(kinda I do but not ones I talk to all the time) where I live rn or where I'll go to school)


It makes more sense to go to school since for the most part it's mostly paid for already. 

It's probably what I'll do. I've just had this on my mind for a week now and needed to get it out. What better way than to share t with strangers on the internet.

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